"..To find what I truly want and what I believe LIFE can provide for me. What I want to exist in MY eternity. I'm trying...to find MY HAPPY and To break free from captivity. "
"And for us that was enough. It's all about timing. Not where we met. It's how we meet. Our opposing ends always connect. Magnetic heat."
If you don't support someone the way they want you to support them, does it count? If you're giving someone all of what you have but it's none of what they need, have you really helped?
I had a therapy appointment scheduled for this week. But due to my change in insurance I now pay out of pocket for all sessions. A $30 co-pay covered through my FSA funds was changed to $80 cash or credit. Now while she doesn't MAKE me pay it right then, I don't like going without … Continue reading Reasons For My Sadness
Kubes!!! What's up! My cub is now 13 weeks along.. The nausea and upchucking has gotten a lot better thanks to a prescription I got from my ObGyn. As I progress along the one thing I wish is that my grandmother was here to witness this with me. Though in my pure heart I feel this … Continue reading End of Trimester One
Moments like this I wish I had a best friend. Someone I can just confide in and just be an ear. Preferably of the same sex. Cause yeah I have a fiancé, but things just aren't the same when you're explaining what's going on in that messed up head of yours. Trying to find the … Continue reading
Today I had a very successful, long awaited therapy session. One of the best moves I've made in this mental battle is finding and sticking with someone who truly has allowed me open up and be myself. And yes, I know that's what they are supposed to do. But, this isn't a "one size fits … Continue reading Auto-Pilot: OFF
Today I feel like a duck. Like people are watching me coast along with the ripples of the water, while I kick my legs profusely to get to the other side. While it seems as though I'm making directional progress, when you take into account where I should've been by now, I've gotten nowhere. Today. … Continue reading Just keep swimming
My breathing slows to counter the increase of heart palpitations. The force of gravity becomes stronger with every step. Every movement. No fire. No desire. For anything. I try to ignore the symptoms but they are not so easily hidden. I'm good at holding them back until I'm asked the question that's forbidden. "What's wrong?". … Continue reading The Battle or A War?
When you feel yourself getting anxious, stop. Take a minute to get yourself together. If you need more, take five minutes. That five minutes should be dedicated to focusing on your breathing and slowing your heart rate. Once your break ends, focus on ONE thing and continue on with your day.