The closer I get to the delivery date (25 days) the more nervous I get. My pregnancy has been quite enjoyable the last 8+ months so you would think the rest would be easy sailing. That's definitely what I'm hoping for. But who wouldn't get nervous about pushing a whole baby out their body? I … Continue reading Closer I Get to You
"..To find what I truly want and what I believe LIFE can provide for me. What I want to exist in MY eternity. I'm trying...to find MY HAPPY and To break free from captivity. "
"And for us that was enough. It's all about timing. Not where we met. It's how we meet. Our opposing ends always connect. Magnetic heat."
If you don't support someone the way they want you to support them, does it count? If you're giving someone all of what you have but it's none of what they need, have you really helped?
I had a therapy appointment scheduled for this week. But due to my change in insurance I now pay out of pocket for all sessions. A $30 co-pay covered through my FSA funds was changed to $80 cash or credit. Now while she doesn't MAKE me pay it right then, I don't like going without … Continue reading Reasons For My Sadness
Morning Sickness? I'm in need of a remedy fast.
Today I had a very successful, long awaited therapy session. One of the best moves I've made in this mental battle is finding and sticking with someone who truly has allowed me open up and be myself. And yes, I know that's what they are supposed to do. But, this isn't a "one size fits … Continue reading Auto-Pilot: OFF
Without the rain, you can't appreciate the rays of the sunshine. So thanks to her timing, we'll call her Sunshine. 🌞 Plans had been set for the weekend. And by plans I don't mean your traditional dinner and a movie. Even though there would be tons of eating involved. 😏 But that fell through and … Continue reading Looking for Lola | pt V
Today I feel like a duck. Like people are watching me coast along with the ripples of the water, while I kick my legs profusely to get to the other side. While it seems as though I'm making directional progress, when you take into account where I should've been by now, I've gotten nowhere. Today. … Continue reading Just keep swimming
My breathing slows to counter the increase of heart palpitations. The force of gravity becomes stronger with every step. Every movement. No fire. No desire. For anything. I try to ignore the symptoms but they are not so easily hidden. I'm good at holding them back until I'm asked the question that's forbidden. "What's wrong?". … Continue reading The Battle or A War?